Thursday, April 3, 2003

THIS SITE IS NO LONGER IN USE.

---The Pitas Staff.

Thursday, April 3, 2003

To All Who Care

It has come to my attention that I am unwittingly ruining people's lives. These are the people that I love most and hold most dear. I can't stand to hurt anyone again on my account, so this needs to stop. Don't anyone worry about me: I'm fine, not suicidal or anything, so please...DON'T WORRY ABOUT ME. I just feel like I need to take a step back so others don't feel that they live in my shadow. I don't want to ...ruin...anything more for anyone else than I already have. Please feel free to talk to me if any of you want, but as of today, Ten No Yume is out of use, and will not be re-activated. Thank you...all...for everything.

TO THOSE I LOVE MOST

THE TIME HAS COME FOR ME TO MORE OR LESS BOW AT AS WHAT I AM TO SOME OF YOU. MAYBE YOU CAN LIVE YOUR LIVES WITHOUT ME AS A PART OR SUCH A LARGE PART OF THEM AND BE BETTER OFF THAN YOU ARE NOW. I'M NOT TRYING TO UPSET ANYONE, I'M JUST TRYING TO MAKE RIGHT WHAT WENT WRONG.
THEREFORE, I WANT TO APOLOGIZE FOR THE PAIN: IT WAS NEVER INTENDED.
I WANT TO APOLOGIZE FOR THE WORDS: THEY SHOULD NEVER HAVE BEEN EXCHANGED.
I WANT TO APOLOGIZE FOR THE DISTANCE: IT WAS NEVER MEANT TO HAPPEN.

I WANT TO APOLOGIZE FOR ME...

I'M SORRY...

FOR EVERYTHING.

Monday, March 31, 2003

Yes, OK OK, I know it is an absolutely INSANE hour, but that's one of the perks to all these college visits! Just wanted to say a "hlo" to all mah peeps from Valparaiso, IN, a totally awesome college. Beautiful campus, with a wonderful Lutheran affiliation. Good for spiritual growth as well as academic.
OK, yes, must get some sleep now. Mah loffly host was kind enought to let me use her computer, but me has an interview with the head of the Honor's College tomorrow, so somes of us might want to be semi-coherent for that.
Endurell and Cedar, great to see you guys today. Endurell, thanx for the card! That really, really lifted my spirits after all that has gone on this week. Turt, Spider, and Ry, thanks for being there to talk me through the lot of this. Turt, thanks especially for the wonderful hour and a half of talking tonight (or this morning, I should say, as it is currently in the am's) about all the things that matter.
Love to you all...
*throws confetti and paper shreds*
Ahhh yes...beginning to feel myself again...
Ooh! Wai, wai, prayer still needed! We still cannot eats very well yets...*murbles*

Friday, March 28, 2003

Nyaaaa.....
Do you ever have one of those days...you know, just one of those days where you want to lay down and DIE because you feel so raunchy?
OK, in case you all haven't guessed already, the stress of the past week, combined with my new diet, exercise, and the recent emotional happenings has caught up with me big-time. However, due to circumstances, I cannot afford to forfeit literally ANY of my activities for the next four days. I am feeling very sick right now, almost a flu-reminiscent strain, which is about the worst thing that could happen. Food holds no appeal whatsoever, and I have no energy. I can't sleep well, and woke up at 2 in the morning last night to some very vivid dreams, probably resulting from the fever and chills I woke up with this morning. The only good thing about this is that the food-holds-no-appeal thing does complement my diet efforts, however, at this time, I could actually USE something in my system other than aspirin and Altoid mints. However, I can't seem to stomach much more.
OK, enough of this. You guys get the point. This is pretty serious, esp. in light of the next four days. Just today I found out that I 'm going in to work as a WAITRESS tonight. This would be good any other night because it means more activity = more money for Senior trip. But I essentially HAVE to go in, regardless of how I feel, but waitressing will only add to the stress.
Erin, I'm still up for Saturday, if I'm feeling better by then. Let me know if there's anything else you want ME to know.
You all know about my trip to Valpo coming up, so please stay in prayer about that, esp. for my strength.
Speaking of college visits, we finally replaced our car. We are the proud owners of a brand new 2003 Honda Pilot LX. yes. A new car. That we own. Amazing, isn't it? Oh, and it's red too. And has a sunroof. And a CD player. And it drives "like buttah", or something along those lines.
OK, time to wrap it up so I can find some place to sleep for half an hour before I leave school with Katherine. Just wanted to throw out a quick, but EXTREMELY heartfelt 'thank you' to the certain person who called me last night and allowed me to vent about the troubles plaguing me. You have no idea how good that felt. Thank you for really understanding, and for becoming a better and better friend who I can honestly trust and depend on. Thank you thank you thank you. in the midst of the mess I am in, it really settles my heart to know that you DO understand me, and are willing to cherish and honor our friendship above all. Gah. Miss you and take care of yourself kid. no more spending!!! :P

Thursday, March 27, 2003
Words sprung from my insane thought patterns of the moment. Sorry to hassle you all with it.

I seek rest in my listlessness
Can I find that brief respite with you?

There are tears on my brow, yet solace in your arms
Can I stay here, then, with you?

My friends, my world can fail
I'll be left alone to stand
"And having done all, to stand"

What the world comes down to
When forever meets today
Is sadness?

I've always dreamed improbable dreams...

Can I stay with you?

Thursday, March 27, 2003

Gah. I just spent the last half hour writing an extensive entry, and it got erased. I am more than displeased and not in the mood to retype it all. So I will summarize.
This weekend: I will be in Valparaiso, IN from Sunday afternoon until Monday night. I leave for IN after Senior Class on Sunday, for those of you who are Elmbrookians. Also, I will not be home Friday at all, because I have school and then work. So technically, I will not be home until Tuesday night, where I will actually be AT HOME, if anyone needs to get a hold of me.
Just wanted to give you guys a heads up: I am not myself right now. I have reasons to believe that my health is failing slowly. This could be due to the absence of sugar in my diet right now, my increased exercise, or emotional stress. I'm leaning towards the last one, but all three are probably involved to some extent.
I'm dealing with some issues in certain relationships right now that I did not know existed or that had not been addressed previously. I'm not naming names, and I'm not writing this for anyone in particular, but I just wanted to let people know the state I'm in right now. It's getting harder for me to talk with some of the people I care about most, and it's starting to wear on me. Just pray for strength and I'll be fine. I just wanted to let you know so no one freaks out for no reason. I know I've done that myself a couple of times.
Ciao...for now.

Tuesday, March 25, 2003
Gah.
Back to the drawing board.
Die evil sponges.
Nothing new or interesting here right now...except that the fire alarms went off in New Hall today and the building was evacuated...while I was in it...
Not that anyone considers that interesting or anything...

Monday, March 24, 2003
Yo to all.
Due to popular demand, i am updating my blog (as you can see). I have litterally destroyed the darn thing in order to get all the previously faulty JAVA and HTML out of it. The whole thing got rather messed up recently (as I'm sure you've noticed). Anyway, thank you all for your patience with this tedious task.

Thursday, February 27, 2003

Until I make something more permanent, I give you...*drumroll*
W-INDS!!! Three of Japan's most talented cutie bois!!! I tell you, these guys have a GIFT. And YES, they are guys, for those of you who were wondering...
Late for lunch, Julie's gonna kills me...

Thursday, February 27, 2003

UNDER CONSTRUCTION FOR THE TIME BEING!!!
(In case you haven't already noticed...)
NEW LAYOUT TO COME SOON!!!

Tuesday, February 25, 2003

*sigh* The winds of change are in the air...
*snorts* Stupid breeze...
Something went wrong with Rinian and Shesta's webhost account, so now my layout is all messed up. *sigh* I think it's time for a new one anyway. I have the new Adobe ImageReady on all the computers at school, so I guess I can make a new one. I'll just have to learn how to use the program...
For those of you who maybe haven't noticed, I'm very exhausted right now. Three days with about 18 hours of sleep total aren't going over well with me. You slow down for a minute and suddenly, you're a walking zombie. And the coffee shop people here are Carroll aren't helping any. They keep playing this psycho 60's music that just drones on about sacreligious topics and ...GAH!!!
*resists temptation to rip out speaker system and stab all occupants of coffee shop with wooden stir sticks*
*sniffs* I need a latte...
*bumbles drowsily away in search of caffeine*

Friday, February 21, 2003

moooooooooooooooo...I have dance practice in a half hour...yaaaahhhh...three hours of dancing and hopping around until I have to leave for work and run around MORE...talk about conflicting interests...Oh well...I guess it could be with worse people...
*boffs with Julie*
NE-way, I just wanted to say a quick "Yo" because yes, contrary to SOME PEOPLE'S beliefs, I DO use that word...if "Yo" can even be considered a word...But yes! I also wanted to draw your attention to several things:
Again, prayer requests: send them to meeeeee!!! So I can post them on my sitieeeeeeeeeee!!!!
Kim is heading out of Ohio for a big family get-together, so pray for strength for her, both emotionally and physically.
I have a piano audition for a scholarship coming up Monday, and I have been having odd twinges in my right elbow. I might have to go back to a doctor, but if you could pease pray for that, it would be appreciated. I use my arm in my dance routine a lot too.
Well, that's all I have time for now, so see you all soon!!!
*t00bs*

Thursday, February 20, 2003


You are totaly and utterly in love and you couldent
stand to be without this person. If your not
already dating them START!

*Are You in Love?*
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Hmmm...wonder if this is a sign...
Shoot, it's late...must goooooo...

Thursday, February 20, 2003

Random ponderings from meeeeee...

Why is it that things with blueberries in them normally turn out purple, instead of blue? Like the yogurt I ate today...

And how can BoA do all those insane dance moves without injuring herself? *whimpers* I hurt my neck and could swear i dislocated my arm aleady, and we aren't even throught the first quarter of the routine...GAH!!! Rehearsal tomorrow...

And we get up out of bed, but get down when we dance? How does that work?

Why did the chicken cross the road? I mean, what possible reason could a chicken have for crossing the road? What the corn cornier on the other side?

What should I name those four little baby chicks who just hatched over the past three days?

How is it that life can go so well for some people, but never work out for others? Why do they have to hurt? Why can't something go right for them? Why can't I do anything about it when I want to so badly? It's a question I ask myself over and over...
You know who you are. I love you.

Thursday, February 20, 2003

Hey to all!!! I finally got my rear in gear and added something I've wanted to add for a really long time!!! Down below my profile and above the Chatter Box is a new Prayer Requests section. If you guys have any prayer requests that you want posted, please let me know: e-mail, IM, Yahoo!, and message box are all acceptable means of communication. Please make sure you state if you do or don't want a prayer request posted, otherwise, I might accidentally end up posting something private if you don't say otherwise. *boffs*

Thursday, February 20, 2003


- Which Legolas are You? -

*giggles* Back to the quizzies!!!!

Tuesday, February 18, 2003


-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.

What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
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I didn't cheat, I SWEAR!!! But those of you who know me probably aren't surprised... ^^

Tuesday, February 18, 2003